Again...

Hello all! I have once again altered the layout of my blog...Hope you like it...It's kinda difficult to actually figure out what to post...After all, why just randomly post about the stupidity that makes twitter so popular...You're not interested in what I'm doing at the moment, and quite frankly I'm not interested in telling you what I'm doing at the moment...So I've got to wrack my brain to come up with something that's pithy and witty and bright...(ok song moment...and I'm rambling...oy!)

In any event I shall simply leave you with this to ponder...(cookie to who can tell me, without looking it up, who wrote it)

Let me not to the marriage of true minda
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O, no! it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests, and is never shaken,
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be
taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom...

A New Beginning

Hello my darling readers! Thus begins, yet again, the new beginning of my wonderful blog. Yes, this is in fact the 2nd time that I've changed my blog, but as you can see there weren't that many changes to be made. I just added some color. Lol! ;)

Currently I'm on campus sitting in the basement at a computer lab waiting for my next class to start. Then it's back home for food and sleep so that I can be on my game for the production that I'm on wardrobe crew for.

All in all it's gonna be a busy couple of weeks and I won't be able to post much...Just so you're aware.

helloooooooo....

Hello my fresia eyed friends! What do you think of my new blog?? Est tres belle non?? Is it not amazing?? And oh so beautiful....*sigh* I'm thrilled beyond words...Ahh the wonders of networking...I guess it really doesn't hurt to know the right people...;p

But really, what do ya'll think? Isn't this amazing? Obviously there are a few kinks that'll eventually be worked out..But for now..This is my fabulous new home!!

Blue Chasing Red

So here is another part to add to the previous post...

Psalm 37 (in part)23-25

"The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in his way; though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the Lord upholds his hand. I have been young, and now am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his children begging for bread."

Red Wanting Blue

I feel like I'm at a crossroad. Surrounded on all sides by choices and failures. And no matter which way I go, I always end up back at the beginning. Yes, a man may choose his way but the Lord directs his steps, but what happens when your caught in a tailspin with no power and no wind...What do you do when you're surrounded on all sides and have nowhere left to go...(and i'm assuming that you're not spending you time staring at your navel - you're looking skyward toward your Lord and savior)

What then? What is life? Is it some kind of accumulation of our work...Our school and then somehow are we nothing more than the culmination of our jobs? Is that how we are seen? As bubbles? Beautiful and fragile and gone.

I'm not sure what life is all about. Not really. But I do know what it isn't. And perhaps that can help. I admit, I'm completely lost at the moment. I've been reading Psalm 42

"As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?

My tears have been my food day and night, while they say to me continually, "Where is your God?" These things I remeber, as I pour out my soul: how I would go with the throng and lead them in procession to the house of God with glad shouts and songs of praise, a multitude keeping festival.

Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you tin turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.

My soul is cast down within me; therefore I remeber you from the land of Jordan and Hermon, from Mount Mizar. Deep calls to Deep at the roar of your waterfalls; all your breakers and your waves have gone over me. By day the Lord commandshis steadfast love, and at night his song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life.

I say to God my rock: "Why have you forgotten me? Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?"

As with a deadly wound in my bones, my adversaries taunt me, while they say to me continually, "where is your God?" Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.

And that pretty much states where I am right now...

Full Circle

And so it begins again. That's right folks, the semester is starting again....And I must somehow force myself to begin again the daily grind...Which is not the most pleasant thought to be having let me tell you!!

But on a completely different note: I have once again begun the excavation of my kitchen...Yes, I am once again baking...Oh, all sorts of things. Bread, scones, cookies...It's all really dependent on my mood these days. But it's been turning out well and that has been a blessing.

the official death of a great mind

So after 2 weeks of straight studying my brain is officially fried. I can't even imagine myself reading another textbook...and I wont...not till I'm good and ready....(of course if I had my way that wouldn't be for quite a while) Not that it's surprising or anything.

It's funny. I have all these really deep things that I wanna say. To "dazzle" the world with my "intellect" and I can't help but sit here and be all..."hmmm. My brain really is dead." Because ya know what, I just don't have it in me. All the great lines and funny/snarky comments are completely asleep. And I'm staring at my bed and all I can think about is how wonderful it would be to just crawl into it and not wake up for a couple hundred years.

So I'm signing off for now. Because in the end, everyone needs to recharge. And tonight, I'm taking the time for me to sleep. So sweet dreams world. See you on the morrow.

Rae